Internet Can Make You Feel Lonely

I have come to realize that some times I post things and don't get a response. That can make me feel lonely. I know that in reality I am not lonely, because I have many people who care about me and many friends around me. However, being online lately has become daunting. I don't really feel like I want to remain connected online anymore.

Sigh...

Like a Speck of Powdered Sugar

Some times, I feel like a speck of powdered sugar.
But like confetti, confection
You make me feel shiny, perfection
You make me feel bigger than the world, and sweet
You make me feel complete

You let me know that God loves us all
You never ever let me fall
Like when I feel like a speck of powdered sugar
feel so small

But like confetti, confection
You make me feel bright, with affection
You make me feel taller than the world, and free
You make me feel complete

WRC

I am over at the Walnut Recreation Center three nights a week, teaching students how to learn English as a Second Language. Most of my students are from México. I have one student from Cuba, 3 from El Salvador, and one from the Democratic Republic of Congo, which is almost dead center in the continent of Africa. I was able to show students tonight on a map where this particular student is from.

I really enjoy teaching. It takes my mind off of everything!

It is my escape from the rest of the world and it is where I take the spotlight, although it is where I get to turn the spotlight onto students so that they can feel that what they are doing is important and something that will go towards their future goal.

No café today. We had so many errands to run.

A Sadness

I think about her a lot. I think about whether she thinks about me anymore, even though I probably already know the answer. I'm happy for her, but I wish I could be happy with her. It's sad because we've been friends for so long and all of a sudden she has chosen to not be in my life anymore. Time and time again, I have told myself to forget about her, but I cannot. Partly it's because I don't want to have to forget someone. Partly it's because I love her and know that at once she loved me. No, we're not lesbians. But I know she cared. I know we were different but she still tried ... until she didn't.

I just can't get over it. What do I do? She's not really a friend, but I'm still her friend, but there's no one there to be a friend to. I have focused on other things and other people, but she'll appear in my dreams, where we'll have conversations about the friendship, but when I wake up, I'll feel really sad because we are not really talking to each other, because at least in the dream, I saw her.